Monthly Archives: January 2013

Close your eyes and take a dive


I’m pretty sure you know that situation: You’re standing on top of a cliff, behind you awaits a hundred-metre-plunge, and in front of you there’s a pack of wolves, a forest fire and a chainsaw-wielding madman with a hockey mask. And instead of taking a chance and taking on one of those obstacles, you turn around and jump off the cliff, screaming, to your inevitable death.

Well, maybe not that exact situation. But that’s kind of how I feel at the moment. I should be answering messages, working on three different novels and preparing for my exams. What am I doing instead? Sticking my head into the sand and writing fanfic after fanfic, most of which will never see the light of day. *sighs* This is me, jumping off a cliff -.-

Maybe I should quit the whole “living like a normal person” thing altogether. I will fail spectacularly in the end, anyway, and any poor bastard who happens to be attached to me in some way will go down with me. Maybe I should just stop trying and do things in my own way. That has always worked, and maybe it always will. Since apparently, the “normal way” doesn’t work for me at all. And who says I have to do everything by following the “rules” down to the letter? Who says there are rules for life anyway? It’s not like this is a giant Game of Life. Screw the rules, I’ll make up my own as I go. Society can kiss my pretty bottom.

Still, I wish I could take a heart and at least start with something. Doesn’t have to be any of the above, but I do feel like a lazy bum at the moment. Maybe I should find another hobby. Knitting maybe, or making crop circles. Yeah, that sounds fun. Now, where’s the nearest cornfield…?





Happy New Year, my lovelies! :D


Yes, I might be a tiny bit exited right now. I mean, the world didn’t end, my hair didn’t turn grey for another year (greying early runs in my family, it kinda sucks…), and I think I finally found a course of studies that’s more than just remotely interesting. So, yay for 2012^^

Aside from the obvious, 2012 was a pretty cool year. I wrote my first thesis (playing video games for research – weee! :D), I developed something resembling a social life, and I won not only one, but two NaNo events. One novel is almost finished, and I already started taking notes for the rewrite, and the other one is coming along nicely, although I’ll probably need to cut a whole chunk out and write it completely different. Meh. Happens. I feel behind quite a bit with my two fanfics, but with Christmas, an unexpected load of homework right before Christmas and the desperate attempt to learn two languages at once (should’ve chosen German studies as a second major instead, at least I wouldn’t have to learn that anymore…), I didn’t really manage to get anything written that I’m comfortable publishing. At least I finished the rest of the outline of my SH story, and the NCIS one should be updated a bit more frequently now. At least that’s the plan. You know what they say about plans. They are the best way to make the universe laugh at you -.-


Anyways, enough rambling! I hope your 2012 was good, and your 2013 will be even better!